Foil
Little snippets of heaven during hell week:
- Listening to ravel’s pavane pour une infante during a long car ride
- When my ROX family notices I am sitting alone and invites me to sit with them (H, S)
- Or when they sit down next to me and stay silent because they know I am exhausted (N, M)
- Good banter with sassy kids (S, K)
- Receiving and reading a letter from a dear friend that will inevitably bring me to tears because of the sincerity in her simple, heartfelt words (V)
- Encouragement notes in general that don’t or do make me cry, regardless, I am smiling (A)
- The moments of humility in leadership where I am down on my knees, in the rain and mud, picking rocks for my beloveds
- 2am walks from brown to my car where I bask in the stillness and radiance of the moon
- The feeling of freedom when you take a step outside, freshly showered and hair still wet, and the wind blows just the right way
- Walks at night in general
- The simple joy that comes from proclaiming the Gospel and introducing Jesus to a friend (B)
- That heartbreak that comes when someone tells you that they are thankful for you and you remember all the times you weren’t there for them (T)
- Telling my ma “I love you” and then blubbering like a baby afterwards
- Eating cold watermelon on a hot hot day
- Those rare days I find myself enjoying doing worship for once
- When the sun peeks out of the clouds
- Taking a three hour nap after eating breakfast
- Taking naps in general
- Accepting the fact that I can’t get an A no matter how hard I try in income tax and feeling strangely okay with it because I’m starting to understand a letter doesn’t validate me
- Getting my hair curled by a friend and realizing that I may actually be fine with raising a daughter because I’d want to curl her hair someday (H)
- When a friend speaks up for me when I am silenced by the tears stuck in my throat (M, F)
- Conversing with a kind, kind advisor (TV)
- When my best says she wants to meet him and tell him “Don’t you freaking hurt her.”
- 2 Corinthians and Ephesians
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Mad grateful for this hell week because I learned so much more than I had in a whole year of leadership. God has been humbling me, bringing me literally down to my knees, and I have found that He is rich in both blessings and lessons. Almost done with the year, last home stretch. May God continue to grow me as the weeks pass by.